I went shopping yesterday and I was looking for a hot cocoa mix. Yes I can make my own I have posted the recipe here but its so much easier to have a simple mix and with all the snow we get here sometimes i like a nice warm cup on a very cold day its a nice treat for me. So any ways I was in Walmart and looked through the hot chocolates they have 3 and they are swiss miss, nestle and starbucks. And Eureka!!! Starbucks does not have MSG!! I was very happy to see this! I had a cup that afternoon and it was a bit rich but pretty good! It should be not too much to ask!! So two companies that are on my good list are Newmans own and Starbucks!! Love them! The nice thing about the Starbucks brand it that they use things that are good for the environment as well and this always makes me happy as well.
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Christmas is over and lovely I had a migraine on Christmas day! I am 2 days late for my period and my hormones are all over the place. I had another one the next day that kicked my butt. I came home from work and slept for a long time and was no good the rest of the day then of course could not sleep that night. I have been taking my prescription sleep medication 3 nights in a row and am so afraid of becoming dependent on it that i did not take it that night (well I also ran out and need to refill it) I tossed and turned much of the night until at 2am gave in and took a unisom. But I did use my Brain sync music it seems to almost always stop the cycle of headaches. However yesterday my jaw was sore I keep forgetting to wear my mouth guard. I know that i felt much better when I was following that diet stricter the migraine trigger foods diet. So something I have added is bothering my head and I am going to slowly eliminate foods and see if I can figure it out. So the first off my attack list is going to be cheeses with the exception of american, ricotta and I seem to be ok with provolone. I will try this for a couple of weeks. Then go from here, So tired of all this but its my life. have to deal. Now to the confusing. I made homemade whipped cream for everyone on Christmas day I bought organic whipping cream and everything. So something told me to look at the ingredients and listed was carageenan...WTH????????????? This thoroughly confuses me! I have read that carageenan is a possible source of MSG possible maybe its not always? i have no idea. This is so confusing to me. Why would anything be in whipping cream but cream? Especially organic? This again is how the food industry lies. Just confusing.
Almost Christmas! Parties are finally done of course with the exception of Christmas eve. This week has been tough. I am supposed to start my period on christmas eve (can we say yay?) so I seem to get wicked migraines the week before I had quite a bad one Thursday and of course this was a day I had to work longer than normal and was extra busy and had to take 3 types of medications ending in percoset that finally almost took it away then had to take 800 mg of advil to top it off!! Then all that I couldn't sleep so had take unisom!! My god my poor liver! I had a sandwich that I loved at work and again because I run a store and prividged to read ingredients where most people do not. We carry boars head meats so I had a bbq chicken sandwich i toasted the bun melted the provolone added honey mustard it was to die for!! So the next day I wanted another but I thought you know I should really look at the ingredients it says no MSG BUT we all know they lie! Yes I know I know flavored things are out but BBQ sauce does not have MSG so I thought i should be safe ....silly silly girl...maltodextrin listed not only once but twice!! LIARS!! Damn and I loved that sandwich too!! So I made another with turkey it was pretty good I must say. I did find another salad dressing at price chopper that I can eat its called simply dressed its by margerites. I have not tried it yet but did get one..
Boy oh boy Friday seems to be one of those days I can not get a grip on things. In my old job I had every other Friday off and it was truly a gift I have begged and begged my husband for this for ANY day of the week I would really prefer a four day work week especially with all the running I do with a teenager right now its overwhelming. Then add days that I feel like crap and there are just so many it takes allot of productivity out of me I feel that I can never get ahead and my house is never really clean. It is very frustrating. Yesterday I had day 2 of a headache was not terrible but oh my the reaction of the medications I was a space cadet all day! I really should not drive or work on these days and here is the thing I thought working for my husband I was going to have a flexible schedule and be able to maybe not work on these days after almost 40 years of dealing with this I am tired of it I am done. But nope I was mislead and sadly mistaken. So i soldier on and do the best I can. Thank God I have figured out many triggers but again its still hard to avoid sometimes.
So to my title of Hot chocolate!! I often enjoy hot chocolate after work and as a matter of fact am having one right now!! Stressed I am I need it! Most of the packaged ones have ....wait for it...MSG!! I got a new kind in at our store Nestle mint read the ingredients thought maybe I could have it but one ingredient sounded off...sodium caseinate I looked on my list and sure enough a source of MSG. SIGH! I have noticed this in many things but have ignored it i mainly look for dextrose or maltodextrose or a couple of other ones that are the main ones that they use. So I make my own hot cocoa. I melt chocolate chips in the microwave I just cover the bottom of the cup with them then add milk and a tsp of cocoa and melt fluff in it. Its very good!! Wouldn't do this every day but it seems to be my stressed out friday treat! If I wanted the mint I could add pepeppermint schnaps! One other thing that I did today is use my free theta download from brainsync.com I have to sit in the car for a half hour while my son has guitar lessons so i used part of that time to meditate and use that brain sync. The theta waves are for relaxation and creativity. Tomorrow is allot of running running running for Jake yet again his christmas ball and the ski area opens it should be a fun day and I will try not to get too stressed driving everywhere!! Just breathe!! It will be wonderful seeing the kids all dressed up and he is sooooo happ to use his new snow board for the first time! Well I do feel much calmer now! The muscles on the side of my head have relaxed the other night I had to put heat on them and peppermint oil and I took a bath I have a tub with jets and really used them on my neck. I also used the brain sync music I think this is what did the trick. I need to use it for a few nights it will calm everything down. I have a code for 25% off anything on that website I may get a relaxation one I don't like this stressed feeling that I have had. I believe that hormones have played a roll in me feeling like I can not get a grip because this is totally not me. But this is also the week that I have the spotting what I call round 2 of my period I still do not know what that is but I do know whatever it is I feel more pms symptoms than I do in actual PMS times. I will continue to use the brain sync this seems to help.
Last night we had another party. It was in a bar, I did not want to drink much not that I do any way. I had a touch of a stomach bug the day before so didn't want to chance my stomach feeling worse. The food was appetizers in a buffet and well there was not much that I really could eat. Lets see stuffed potatoes had bacon cant eat nitrates, chicken wings, could be ok BUT sometimes chicken has MSG n the batter, I chanced eating bbq meatballs, veggies and dip I ate but I now today go DUH dip DUH MSG!!! They had wraps cut in pinwheels but were ham nope cant ham has nitrates, sigh so I ate cheese fondue and lots of bread with it this was my dinner. I STILL got a headache today because I ate the stupid dip maybe the meatballs ugh!!! Not a bad headache but still!! It is hard to be out and not in control. I am having Christmas with friends tomorrow yes at my house and I am cooking! CONTROL!! We have another party Saturday and then one the following Saturday and of course Christmas eve I will do the best that I can and not live in a cave and enjoy all these holidays because one day we may not be doing all this so I will enjoy what I can and if I get the occaional he I am feeling better but it was a long streak of feeling so tired and a variation of headaches from dull to bad. And for the first time in awhile I had the Tuesday where I had to nap at 11 before work. I am stressed to the max getting ready for christmas and I really shouldnt be I have it under control I know I have been exceptionally grumpy and on edge and ready to snap very easy. But also Since the week before thanksgiving I have not had much time to breath I tried to wrap presents the other day and got snapped at because we had to go to yet another christmas party and here is the thing if it was something for me he wouldnt have been ready on time would have made me late he always makes me late but because its something for him he is all antsy this is part of my stress. Chill this was an open house can be attended at any time let me finish what I was doing then i wrap yesterday and I have to take JAke to guitar constant interruptions with no help he could have offered to pick him up after I dropped him off so I didnt have to sit there for a half hour but nope it is always on me so this is my stress. Then we went to dinner with our camp friends and I always bring gifts for all of them but they dont do things for us and i have been to busy to do anything he was like I feel bad i said well I was going to make something but I just dont have time. If he would help me in the tiniest tiniest bits my stress would lift. I think my hormones are all over the place right now because I feel like I am right on the edge of screaming at all times. Plus there has been no down time and that does not help. I feel all this right in my head pressure. I see the botox is wearing off the wrinkles in my forehead are back and i knew that it was wearing off in the sides of my head because those muscles are back to being swollen and i have had dull headaches there so despite all the food changes I still need the botox but its ok it helps and that is the main thing I will have to call and that stinks because It will mean another week delay because he does the sh
Just as I get cocky enough to think I have these monsters under control they are back. Yes they still are not to the level they were before but they are back. Two weeks ago I had a three day headache and I am heading that way now I have ha done for two days and they are the drag me out much more than the first set and I had a lot of pressure in my head and tiredness that came and went before hand for a few days. I have a feeling that if I was not eating like I am this would have been a nonstop feeling like crap streak for 2 or 3 weeks. It never fails to amaze me what it takes for me to keep these under control. What I think is happening right now #1 its period time so hormones and some hormone times are worse than others and this one is out of control I seem to be very emotional an weepy as well also before I got the first round of headaches I was so out of control bloated I looked quite pregnant!!!!!!!!!!! Plus not sleeping great having to take sleep meds allot. So yea hormones are out of whack. I also believe that my botox is begining to wear off I don't think I can get the injections until the end of this month but there is this area at the side of my head where the muscles just buldge and this is where the headaches are now both sides but mostly on the right when i have the injections they go flat. Possibly its from clentching my tee
We had our family cookie exchange this weekend the first of many holiday parties the first of many that make eating a challenge for me not knowing how people make things if they used a mix in their chili or added sausage to it trying not to hurt any ones feelings by not taking their food. This has also been the most difficult monlthy cycle I have had as far as headaches but its interesting even with it being the most difficult since I discovered my food issues its NOTHING like it used to be I have a feeling that if I was eating like I used to I would have been out for the count for a week or two. I kept getting tired and have had a difficult time sleeping but nothing like before the getting tired would come in waves and then leave before oh dear God would knock me out I would have been spaced right out this was tolerable. I did finally seem to get the worst of the headache yesterday napped and that was the end of it yes I did take a killer amount of pain meds BUT before the evening would have been lost to me and even today. This is huge to me. Yes I went shopping with my husband before I napped and I was light and sound sensitive and it was annoying but its what I have delt with my whole life. I can live with this diet and love the way I feel!!
Yesterday for breakfast I made baked oatmeal with blueberries got it off pintrest Oh my this was wonderful saved the rest for breakfast this week for work no junk in it so good for me! i went grocery shopping and wanted Quaker oatmeal squares love those looked at the label...maltodextran!!! REALLY this made me so sad i love those!! so another food off my list!! |
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